Will they rise, will we…

How are you digesting all that awful information out there, is it weighing heavy as it is with me?  I just cannot fathom the depths of evil pooled in a man like P*tin and the mentality of  those who willingly follow his lead.  How do you march and drive and fly and angle your weapon into a peaceable country and start obliterating innocent people and all the things they have built and lived in and loved,  and live with yourself afterward. How do you admire the man who tells you to do so?    And how does that evil man think he can ever gain whatever little thread of respect he had in this world, now that he has proven himself to be another version of H*tler.   He is destroying his own country along with his decimation of Ukran*an cities, how did he ever believe this would be a big win for him?

Why such evil exists in a world where we could truly all live in harmony and without basic need if we would all just rise to that simple concept… is beyond my comprehension.  It would be so easy.  How did we evolve into something so different.  Well…. some of us.    This is where the concept of an all seeing, all loving, all knowing, all powerful Creator fails me.  It feels more like we were an experiment that is failing, rapidly.   Or was he/she/they like the surgeon who’s intent is to save a life but  nicks a main artery in the process and we slowly bleed out.  If you find comfort in religion, my intent is not to mock your beliefs.  I just don’t see it, with all my heart I don’t feel it.  I believe more in the power of good people and I pray for that most of all.

I am so impressed by the tenacity, the raw courage of the Leader and people of Ukra*ne.  I hope they prevail, I hope they will be able to return to their country and rebuild, despite the destruction, and I hope we all live to see it.  My prayers for them are simple.. I am a spiritual person, if not religious.  I pray they rise like a phoenix from the ashes and overcome the monster’s attempted extermination.  And I pray this country gets it’s shit together and finds more unity among us, rising from the ashes of the political discourse that is also so.. unnecessary.  Don’t we all want the same basic things?  We do, if you don’t fall for the talking heads with their own agendas.

I have one tattoo on my 57 year old body – and it is the phoenix, it is my prayer.

 

 

 

 

Again.

Looking out over this pink dawn, my mind can’t erase the images and videos of the absolute evil destruction of a peaceful people’s country by a cunning soulless madman. The rest of the world should be standing with them, defending their lives with the might of the many. We don’t… and we won’t … because we have invented weapons that can destroy us all and the earth we inhabit, and a Third World War would most likely end us all … hard to imagine such stupidity and such hate. And yet here we are. Letting a madman have his way, so many innocent lives lost… again.

Again.

Again. 💔

Imagine

 

The following is written by my mother, my best friend and advocate always, love you mom –

Imagine: Thoughts on the Anniversary of An Insurrection   

by  Kathleen Amoia

 

I think there are many reasons we are at this inflection point in our democracy. Some are the result of anger at government failures in the face of major societal changes, some self-indulgent ignorance, some opportunist power grabs, some racist and misogynist. Another reason, I believe,  is a general failure of imagination that includes most of us.

Too many of us are playing with the idea of losing our democracy as if it has no intrinsic value to our daily lives. Too many play with the idea of secession as if it could be an easy and successful separation, no harm, no foul, a mulligan of sorts. Many are considering forever contesting election results without proof of fraud, of denying the vote to major segments of our citizenry without imagining the pushback, considering letting elected officials go unpunished for treason without imagining what that means for good governance and the rule of law. Many rant and rave over manipulated petty outrages of no  consequence while ignoring growing authoritarianism, a three year pandemic, and the existential threat of climate change. Do look up, imagine the proverbial asteroid (  democracy, voting rights, climate change). It is right over our heads.

We flirt with fascism and the power grabbers are thrilled. Imagine them without constraints on their greed, their ability to corrupt the courts, to buy every election forever. Imagine another fascist inclined president whose sycophants have learned how to pull off a coup. Imagine what would have happened if Pence had in fact been killed and the fascist in the White House had declared martial law and just remained in power. What then? What would fighting, blood in the streets, vigilante justice, mob rule  look and feel like? What is it like when a nation, afraid and weary of death, destruction, and economic chaos , turns to the strongman and accepts whatever he demands in exchange for peace. And yes, promises the trains will run on time. They won ‘t. Imagine and don’t think for a minute it could not happen here.

Imagine we are halfway to being Russia on steroids. We are bigger, we are armed to the teeth, and we are being taught to hate each other. We are richer, there is more to be grabbed by the corrupt and those they favor. Let’s imagine it all until it scares us sufficiently to get serious about the work that has to be done to save this fragile democracy. Let’s imagine what would be lost and perhaps never regained.

Let’s imagine we like most of our fellow Americans and the democracy we were blessed with, imperfect but so much better than fascism. Let’s protect the vote and use it to elect decent, informed men and women who want to lead for the right reasons and have the innate decency and courage to do so.

Imagine that!

 

The Will Of The People

     This year I’ve made a concerted effort to stay out of the political fray, and it’s been good for me. I notice many others are doing the same. However, I can’t ignore what happened a year ago today – nor the cult-like acceptance of the many lies and the violence spurred by those lies, all put in play by one inflated but lethaly cunning ego and enablers so twisted, they emboldened all that is ugly in this society and managed to make a mockery of much that is good. Despite many many attempts to find proof that our elections are rigged, there is ZERO ZIP evidence that DT lost the election any way but fairly and through the fault of his own damaging actions (proof here…. if he had proven he could be a decent leader, this person would have voted for him in his second run. He destroyed that within his first year, and I’m not alone in feeling that way, not by a long shot). He’s a horrible loser and he can’t let it go, not even for the good of the country and the democracy he is supposed to protect. Truly one of the ugliest types of a person there can be in every catagory proven by his own actions and words during his lifetime, yet somehow, he’s gained a following he will never be worthy of, because he knows how to rile and anger and arouse the worst in humanity to forward his mission, and his mission is always, always about him first, not We The People. He knew our weaknesses (he wasn’t wrong about those) and he abused and exploited them and managed with his words to divide this nation like never before. The worst possible type of human to lead these United States, and he brought the worst out in all of us. He proved me right again and again and again. I so hoped he would prove me wrong.
     FIVE PEOPLE DIED during his tantrum on the capitol, an angry mob fueled by a lie, many lies. Proven. Not Fake News. Texts from his own family and cohorts prove they knew how awful it was too, begging him to do something to reverse it, yet he did not. What was it that was said so often after H. Clinton lost the election? You lost, get over yourselves. The hypocrisy is laughable, if only five people hadn’t died. Where are the back the blue people as they applaud that hideous day? Trump lost this election all by himself, with his own hideous mouth, lies, abuses of power, the corrupt (how many arrests??and proven guilt?) … swamp he surrounded himself with.
     So they say we’re on the brink of losing our democracy. Do we really understand the meaning of the word? In it’s simplest form, a way of governing run by the will of the people. Why would we not protect that very important thing we all want? We are never all going to agree, and for this to succeed, we all must agree to disagree and accept elected officials as they are elected, the elected must WORK TOGETHER for the common good, and we need to encourage candidates who are first and foremost qualified, and unifying – not divisive and corrupt. TERM LIMITS, AGE LIMITS! Is it possible? I don’t know.. but it’s the only way forward if the system is to survive, and it starts with We The People.
     I didn’t want Joe Biden for President, and I am disappointed with Kamala Harris, for reasons I don’t need to go into here. I’m capable of hoping for the best for them and for us, as I tried to do for Trump initially. I don’t see evil people in our current Pres and VP… I see politicians who dedicated their lives to serving a country they believed in, whether we will agree on some of their choices or not. What Biden said today was spot on – it’s our truth whether we want it to be our not. Blind ignorance serves no one, especially those who choose it…. so I hope we all will heed the warning, because it’s screaming over our hills, down our roads and through our valleys, communities, in our cities, our villages , our world.
     “At this moment, we must decide what kind of nation are we going to be. Are we going to be a nation that accepts political violence as a norm? Are we going to be a nation where we allow partisan election officials to overturn the legally expressed will of the people? Are we going to be a nation that lives not by the light of the truth, but in the shadow of lies? We cannot allow ourselves to be that kind of nation. The way forward is to recognize the truth, to live by it”
– Amen

Shots or Not

I certainly… certainly… thought by now we’d all have that damned virus kicked to the curb.  At this point I’m not sure it will ever be eradicated.  I missed the smiles on people’s faces and it’s discouraging to see masks coming back into every store again, but I understand the fear and the need for caution.  All the crazy out there is flapping in the breeze, too ….. there are government chips in the vaccines, you know…. they’re tracking you…. even though that smart phone you have in your hands has been tracking you for years if that’s something you lose sleep over.

I’m not thrilled to  inject my body with any foreign anything, heck, I don’t ever get the flu shot , but I’ve been inoculated throughout my life as most of you have too and I know without a doubt vaccinations have eradicated many a disease we would otherwise die from.   I’m grateful for the option to get vaccinated against the virus I saw take my Dad down in a matter of days, but I do believe it should be everyone’s  right to decide for themselves if it’s right for them , and I understand the legitimate concerns.

While it’s true you can still get sick once you’re vaccinated,  and even carry the virus to give to others, science and experience is saying the severity is diminished and so far in my life I have seen science save lives much more often than it takes them.  It boggles the mind that somehow, through recent politicizing of a public health threat that should NOT EVER have been politicized, science for some has become something not to be trusted.

You know.. there are gambles we all take on a regular basis.  When you drink or smoke you take a gamble. When you get in your vehicle and drive off you take a gamble. When you choose not to get your health check ups you take a gamble…  When you sip a c*ke, eat k8ntucky fried chicken, throw back some Adv*l for pain,  eat take out chinese food, pizza, Mickey D’s, buy foods supposedly labeled organic, skate on a pond, ski down a mountain… it’s all a gamble, and  it’s yours to take.. or not.

I’m not advising anyone on what they should do regarding the vaccine or anything else for that matter.  Heck, I go back and forth myself.  But I know science isn’t evil  (big ph*arma, the business, is another story)  and science is ever evolving, and while I absolutely abhor some members of our government, for the most part I’m certain most of them aren’t evil either. In so many ways we are so damned lucky for the science and the democracy we have today.  How we have benefited from both is getting lost on some people as they get mired in the conspiracy theories and utter bullshit some will spew for their political posturing and   to confuse and divide the masses.     That’s how you control and keep the masses down where you want them, proven through history time and again.  How is that lost on anyone?

We here in this house decided based on our  circumstances and the conclusions we’ve drawn from our own research…  we are vaccinated.  That doesn’t make us sheep.   With great hope, it might make us and our loved ones safer.  That’s the gamble we decided to take.

Wishing you, each and every one –  vaxed and unvaxed

a Merry Christmas and a Happy, HEALTHY New Year – 

with much love from This Old House 2 and Stella by the Sea – 

 

My Valentine to You

 

Have I told you lately how much I appreciate your dropping by now and then? I have come to know some wonderful salt of the earth people (my favorite kind) on this blog forum and that is a Valentine all on it’s own.

Lots to catch up on… How about that non-impeachment joke of an event?  Without  going into a diatribe about how thoroughly disgusted I continue to be, this sums it up pretty well…

Anyway.. Onward.

We’ve had snow and the typical cold raw grey New England winter days… and my back and neck remind me I’ve been doing barn chores in this weather for oooh… about 40 years now, give or take a few….

Above is Leah, our showgirl-come- home, and she loves being a home horse with less responsibility 🙂

Below is our old boy, Max… glaucoma clouds one eye.  He and I match with about the same amount of greys and no fondness for makeup- thankfully I don’t have his chin hairs.

The EggPlant during a recent snowfall….  I have 8 new chicks of colorful varieties coming soon!….

Our daughter’s house in the field nextdoor….

 

My son and his fiance have a new baby… their first… and he’s of the canine variety – Meet Leo, a 4 month old rottie –  I get to babysit a few times a week when the boy is at work.

 

When your mom becomes a grand and  suddenly has that McDonalds money you were always asking for….

 Some Valentine Wisdom……

And finally — whoever Emma Knight is… she is definitely  of my people❤

Till soon, Friends…

 

 

 

 

Are you as hopeful today as I am?

Mr. President, Dr. Biden, Madam Vice President, Mr. Emhoff, Americans and the world, when day comes we ask ourselves where can we find light in this never-ending shade? The loss we carry asea we must wade. We’ve braved the belly of the beast. We’ve learned that quiet isn’t always peace. In the norms and notions of what just is isn’t always justice. And yet, the dawn is ours before we knew it. Somehow we do it. Somehow we’ve weathered and witnessed a nation that isn’t broken, but simply unfinished. We, the successors of a country and a time where a skinny black girl descended from slaves and raised by a single mother can dream of becoming president only to find herself reciting for one.

And yes, we are far from polished, far from pristine, but that doesn’t mean we are striving to form a union that is perfect. We are striving to forge our union with purpose. To compose a country committed to all cultures, colors, characters, and conditions of man. And so we lift our gazes not to what stands between us, but what stands before us. We close the divide because we know to put our future first, we must first put our differences aside. We lay down our arms so we can reach out our arms to one another. We seek harm to none and harmony for all. Let the globe, if nothing else, say this is true. That even as we grieved, we grew. That even as we hurt, we hoped. That even as we tired, we tried that will forever be tied together victorious. Not because we will never again know defeat, but because we will never again sow division.

Scripture tells us to envision that everyone shall sit under their own vine and fig tree and no one shall make them afraid. If we’re to live up to her own time, then victory won’t lie in the blade, but in all the bridges we’ve made. That is the promise to glade, the hill we climb if only we dare. It’s because being American is more than a pride we inherit. It’s the past we step into and how we repair it. We’ve seen a forest that would shatter our nation rather than share it. Would destroy our country if it meant delaying democracy. This effort very nearly succeeded.

But while democracy can be periodically delayed, it can never be permanently defeated. In this truth, in this faith we trust for while we have our eyes on the future, history has its eyes on us. This is the era of just redemption. We feared it at its inception. We did not feel prepared to be the heirs of such a terrifying hour, but within it, we found the power to author a new chapter, to offer hope and laughter to ourselves so while once we asked, how could we possibly prevail over catastrophe? Now we assert, how could catastrophe possibly prevail over us?

We will not march back to what was, but move to what shall be a country that is bruised, but whole, benevolent, but bold, fierce, and free. We will not be turned around or interrupted by intimidation because we know our inaction and inertia will be the inheritance of the next generation. Our blunders become their burdens. But one thing is certain, if we merge mercy with might and might with right, then love becomes our legacy and change our children’s birthright.

So let us leave behind a country better than one we were left with. Every breath from my bronze-pounded chest we will raise this wounded world into a wondrous one. We will rise from the gold-limbed hills of the West. We will rise from the wind-swept Northeast where our forefathers first realized revolution. We will rise from the Lake Rim cities of the Midwestern states. We will rise from the sun-baked South. We will rebuild, reconcile and recover in every known nook of our nation, in every corner called our country our people diverse and beautiful will emerge battered and beautiful. When day comes, we step out of the shade aflame and unafraid. The new dawn blooms as we free it. For there is always light. If only we’re brave enough to see it. If only we’re brave enough to be it.

 

Amanda Gorman – Inaugural Poet

Therapy

 

Holy Government Shit Storms, Batman.   I just don’t have appropriate words.  Or rather I’m too disgusted by it all to speak without many, many expletives right now and we just don’t need any more of that, do we.

GOAT THERAPY!   I know I’m repeating a post theme here.. but I just love my goatgirlz…. Star and Bella provide daily entertainment and just plain love in the ways goats show it.  They call to us constantly if we’re out in on the property in range of their view,… so much so that Star actually gets laryngitis on occasion….  and when we enter their pen they’re on us like white on rice.

ART THERAPY!  I’ve been painting more too…. and managed to auction off one of my St. John paintings to benefit the animal rescue I have befriended on St. John – for $650.!  I’m no professional, so that’s a big chunk for one of my little paintings, I was thrilled.  St. John lovers from from all over the country were bidding and can you believe the winning bid, which I determined within hours of starting the process… lives about 10 miles from me?  Just over the river.   What are the odds?

This one just finished… the Nathan Hale House with an early evening sky….

Some funnies for you before closing….  and if you can’t relate on some level, you’re truly special 🙂

I’m not a  ritual-practicing religious person, but I find myself praying for our country’s soul lately.  Please… powers that be.. above all, Good over Evil.

 

Till soon, Friends…. thank you for stopping by – 

 

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas….

…. and for most of us that’s exactly what it will be, a “little” Christmas compared to what we’re used to.  Strange times indeed.  This past month I have taken a step back from newsfeeds and my appalled reactions to so much of it.   I am grateful for this family’s health including our mothers and for the promise of better days ahead.  I hope you are weathering the multitude of storms and are feeling some optimism for the future.

I put Christmas up here in this house before Thanksgiving was done – we needed the cheer so I pulled out all the stops – even the SnowVillage that’s been in big bins in the basement for years came back out.  It’s true we won’t have the bigger family gathering we usually do, but that’s OK – it helps to know we are placing some insurance on having everyone round the table again next year by being cautious this year.  This will be the first Christmas without Dad. (Fuck Covid)  Last year he brought with him a mini drone that he loved – we pushed it around between us and had a good laugh…. I can tell you for certain it will not matter, whatever the issues in a push and tug relationship, once they’re gone, you’ll be reminded of the good, the bad, and you’ll miss them.  Also, no matter what you thought you were doing right while they were around, you’ll find regrets.

 

From the looks of these gingerbread men you’d think we’d been drinkin –

 

Sally’s favorite seat in the mancave…

We’ve had some beautiful snow, although it makes barn chores a little more difficult. My goatgirls Bella and Star are not impressed with the white stuff, but have adjusted .. eventually.

SO much joy I get from these two… they talk to us all the time, huddle around our legs, I’m grateful I can hear some of their little goat girl mumbles… mehhh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh.

More snow pics here on the farm….

My daughter’s home next door can be seen in the photo below…

My son’s home is deep in the mist of the picture below.   Happy News to share with you on that front in the next post…

Some laughs to share with you next…. and wishing you all a very Merry Christmas, a joyful, peaceful holiday season in whatever the ways you celebrate, and good health and much happiness in the New Year – XO

Sharing this beautiful song , one of my all time favorites… click on the link and click skip the ads… enjoy ❤

https://youtu.be/ChcR2gKt5WM

 

Till soon, friends…