Let go or be dragged….

You know what I love about being 55 years old? A few valuable pieces of knowledge become fully ingrained. People who are not interested in the truth and integrity of a thing especially when it doesn’t coordinate with their own prejudices or enrichment are not worthy of your wasted energy in trying to shed light. They’re not looking for light, they like dwelling in anger or hate or chaos, maybe mean is in their makeup and their brand of broken is not yours to fix. For whatever reasons, that’s their comfort zone even though it is detrimental to their own well being. This is no place to allow any time suck of your own.
Also, those people who didn’t value your presence in their life on any real level, those who you allowed to erode your sense of self worth in a relationship, a job force, a club, a friendship , whether in a monumental or peripheral relationship even in the school yard all those years ago if that applies to you…. anywhere on your life’s journey? It’s a beautiful thing to discover and know fully in your heart you were the decent human in that equation all along, and you still are. You cultivated a good human in yourself, and they are still who they showed you to be all those moons ago. Believe people when they show you who they are.
Anger has no place in a healthy heart – let go or be dragged, and pity those who can’t see beyond their own existence to value the good relationships they could forge, and for a better world for all, including themselves. (!)
Onward ✨

Are you as hopeful today as I am?

Mr. President, Dr. Biden, Madam Vice President, Mr. Emhoff, Americans and the world, when day comes we ask ourselves where can we find light in this never-ending shade? The loss we carry asea we must wade. We’ve braved the belly of the beast. We’ve learned that quiet isn’t always peace. In the norms and notions of what just is isn’t always justice. And yet, the dawn is ours before we knew it. Somehow we do it. Somehow we’ve weathered and witnessed a nation that isn’t broken, but simply unfinished. We, the successors of a country and a time where a skinny black girl descended from slaves and raised by a single mother can dream of becoming president only to find herself reciting for one.

And yes, we are far from polished, far from pristine, but that doesn’t mean we are striving to form a union that is perfect. We are striving to forge our union with purpose. To compose a country committed to all cultures, colors, characters, and conditions of man. And so we lift our gazes not to what stands between us, but what stands before us. We close the divide because we know to put our future first, we must first put our differences aside. We lay down our arms so we can reach out our arms to one another. We seek harm to none and harmony for all. Let the globe, if nothing else, say this is true. That even as we grieved, we grew. That even as we hurt, we hoped. That even as we tired, we tried that will forever be tied together victorious. Not because we will never again know defeat, but because we will never again sow division.

Scripture tells us to envision that everyone shall sit under their own vine and fig tree and no one shall make them afraid. If we’re to live up to her own time, then victory won’t lie in the blade, but in all the bridges we’ve made. That is the promise to glade, the hill we climb if only we dare. It’s because being American is more than a pride we inherit. It’s the past we step into and how we repair it. We’ve seen a forest that would shatter our nation rather than share it. Would destroy our country if it meant delaying democracy. This effort very nearly succeeded.

But while democracy can be periodically delayed, it can never be permanently defeated. In this truth, in this faith we trust for while we have our eyes on the future, history has its eyes on us. This is the era of just redemption. We feared it at its inception. We did not feel prepared to be the heirs of such a terrifying hour, but within it, we found the power to author a new chapter, to offer hope and laughter to ourselves so while once we asked, how could we possibly prevail over catastrophe? Now we assert, how could catastrophe possibly prevail over us?

We will not march back to what was, but move to what shall be a country that is bruised, but whole, benevolent, but bold, fierce, and free. We will not be turned around or interrupted by intimidation because we know our inaction and inertia will be the inheritance of the next generation. Our blunders become their burdens. But one thing is certain, if we merge mercy with might and might with right, then love becomes our legacy and change our children’s birthright.

So let us leave behind a country better than one we were left with. Every breath from my bronze-pounded chest we will raise this wounded world into a wondrous one. We will rise from the gold-limbed hills of the West. We will rise from the wind-swept Northeast where our forefathers first realized revolution. We will rise from the Lake Rim cities of the Midwestern states. We will rise from the sun-baked South. We will rebuild, reconcile and recover in every known nook of our nation, in every corner called our country our people diverse and beautiful will emerge battered and beautiful. When day comes, we step out of the shade aflame and unafraid. The new dawn blooms as we free it. For there is always light. If only we’re brave enough to see it. If only we’re brave enough to be it.

 

Amanda Gorman – Inaugural Poet

Therapy

 

Holy Government Shit Storms, Batman.   I just don’t have appropriate words.  Or rather I’m too disgusted by it all to speak without many, many expletives right now and we just don’t need any more of that, do we.

GOAT THERAPY!   I know I’m repeating a post theme here.. but I just love my goatgirlz…. Star and Bella provide daily entertainment and just plain love in the ways goats show it.  They call to us constantly if we’re out in on the property in range of their view,… so much so that Star actually gets laryngitis on occasion….  and when we enter their pen they’re on us like white on rice.

ART THERAPY!  I’ve been painting more too…. and managed to auction off one of my St. John paintings to benefit the animal rescue I have befriended on St. John – for $650.!  I’m no professional, so that’s a big chunk for one of my little paintings, I was thrilled.  St. John lovers from from all over the country were bidding and can you believe the winning bid, which I determined within hours of starting the process… lives about 10 miles from me?  Just over the river.   What are the odds?

This one just finished… the Nathan Hale House with an early evening sky….

Some funnies for you before closing….  and if you can’t relate on some level, you’re truly special 🙂

I’m not a  ritual-practicing religious person, but I find myself praying for our country’s soul lately.  Please… powers that be.. above all, Good over Evil.

 

Till soon, Friends…. thank you for stopping by – 

 

The best laid plans…

My son and his GF have been together for six years now, since High School days.  They’ve had an exciting year – the completion of their home just over the hill next to this farm, and on Christmas Eve my son proposed.  There’s a story behind it…. the ORIGINAL PLAN was a big surprise for his soon to be bride – We were going to take our annual trip to  the Woodstock  Inn in Vermont for a December weekend this year instead of fall foliage time.  She would be under the impression it was just us, as usual.  (Plans were made when we thought the pandemic would be winding down.)  When we walked into the main lobby, she would see a huge banner across their main fireplace that read Will you Marry Me  M………. .    Her parents, step parents and beloved Aunts and Uncles would be there among the Inn Staff with champagne in hand ready to toast – and we’d all spend a lovely weekend in that beautiful town celebrating.    But COVID raged on.  We could have kept our reservations… the Inn was gracious…  but Vermont has strict travel rules due to the virus and they weren’t adherable.. nor did any of us feel comfortable traveling as the numbers in the news  got worse.

The Puppy Plan materialized.  The young couple has been eagerly awaiting the birth of their rottweiler pup, from a breeder in Florida with an excellent long time reputation.  My blog readers know I am an animal rescue advocate, but my son was raised with our two female rotties and what he really wanted was a male rottie of his own.  The rescues we looked at had a few in the past year but not one I would trust with a young family and their first official dog.  Hence, a solid  ethical breeder ( not a mill).   SO… off he went to Florida a few days before Christmas in a rental mini van with his cousin to pick up the pup.  When they arrived home the plan was to have the puppy with a big bow and a ring attached. And we would all show up at the same time, he’d pop the question and we’d have a safe distance toast on the front porch.  Except she was called in to work.  So.. he arrived home with the puppy and fiance-to-be at work.    We then decided to hide in the house , cars behind the house and garage, and she walked in…. hugged the new puppy… and we all strolled out with that big banner in hand, her dad handed M the ring, M proposed to M… tears, cheers, toasts, and puppy love.

The new baby’s name is LEO, or King Leo the 2nd, as he is named after his (HUGE) father.

 

The moms, unmasked for the picture and champagne…

So.. while this was a weird Christmas and we really missed having our moms right there with us for the dinners and the presents, etc… there is much to celebrate as well.    The wedding will be when the pandemic is over and we can all come together to celebrate in a big happy way.  – Karen 💕

 

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas….

…. and for most of us that’s exactly what it will be, a “little” Christmas compared to what we’re used to.  Strange times indeed.  This past month I have taken a step back from newsfeeds and my appalled reactions to so much of it.   I am grateful for this family’s health including our mothers and for the promise of better days ahead.  I hope you are weathering the multitude of storms and are feeling some optimism for the future.

I put Christmas up here in this house before Thanksgiving was done – we needed the cheer so I pulled out all the stops – even the SnowVillage that’s been in big bins in the basement for years came back out.  It’s true we won’t have the bigger family gathering we usually do, but that’s OK – it helps to know we are placing some insurance on having everyone round the table again next year by being cautious this year.  This will be the first Christmas without Dad. (Fuck Covid)  Last year he brought with him a mini drone that he loved – we pushed it around between us and had a good laugh…. I can tell you for certain it will not matter, whatever the issues in a push and tug relationship, once they’re gone, you’ll be reminded of the good, the bad, and you’ll miss them.  Also, no matter what you thought you were doing right while they were around, you’ll find regrets.

 

From the looks of these gingerbread men you’d think we’d been drinkin –

 

Sally’s favorite seat in the mancave…

We’ve had some beautiful snow, although it makes barn chores a little more difficult. My goatgirls Bella and Star are not impressed with the white stuff, but have adjusted .. eventually.

SO much joy I get from these two… they talk to us all the time, huddle around our legs, I’m grateful I can hear some of their little goat girl mumbles… mehhh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh.

More snow pics here on the farm….

My daughter’s home next door can be seen in the photo below…

My son’s home is deep in the mist of the picture below.   Happy News to share with you on that front in the next post…

Some laughs to share with you next…. and wishing you all a very Merry Christmas, a joyful, peaceful holiday season in whatever the ways you celebrate, and good health and much happiness in the New Year – XO

Sharing this beautiful song , one of my all time favorites… click on the link and click skip the ads… enjoy ❤

https://youtu.be/ChcR2gKt5WM

 

Till soon, friends…

As I set the table on Thanksgiving morning the stark reality of what this particular day’s table looks like settled into my gut. Not only was that table far less crowded due to pandemic precautions, ( our mothers and any extended family stayed home) … but the man who sat at the far end head of the table is no longer with us because of the same virus that keeps us apart. Dad wasn’t a church goer- but he took pride in saying grace before the big meal, and so it was his job each Thanksgiving.  That moment was the hard one, and became a moment of silence instead.
Sending love from our house to all of yours, a hug to those who  observed the empty seat, and for those who couldn’t join with their families in the usual traditions. May Grace and gratitude find us all in the days to come, there is truly so much to be thankful for ❤️

Amen, America. Amen.

How refreshing it is to hear an intelligent rational all inclusive uplifting inspiring speech intended for All Americans and the World tonight . Amen and God Bless Us All- 💙🇺🇸❤️

A poem written by an unknown author (to me anyway)

I learned how to flinch.
Oh god.
Every lie. Flinch.
Every casual cruelty. Flinch.
Every appeal to hate, to division. Flinch.
Every grasp at more power. Flinch.
Tear down health
tear down decency
tear down protections to the earth
when our clock is ticking and the world burns.
Tear down science.
Tear us apart.
Flinch flinch flinch.
Drag us backwards with each all caps Tweet
with each temper tantrum
each demand for mindless loyalty.
Follow him
take off the mask
die for him.
Flinch.
I have been pulling inward for years
holding my breath
desperately numbing my emotions
afraid disgusted ashamed under siege
helpless
flinch
flinch
Vote
Vote
oh please my country vote
and I kept vigil each long election week night
watching results come in
refresh
refresh
refresh
bleary eyed
7 tabs open
afraid
watching the numbers
hold out hold out just a bit more
stretched taut
maybe maybe
please
take a sleeping pill and wake and back to the vigil
again
again
And Wisconsin is blue
and Michigan is blue
and I begin to hope
but I have learned to flinch.
And Georgia is blue
and I begin to believe.
Wait. Wait. Refresh.
And in a pre dawn vigil
Pennsylvania flips blue.
And I know.
And 4 years of compressed pain
comes roaring up
in a torrent of
ugly cry
shaking
sobbing
wailing relief tears
And I don’t flinch from them.

All Votes Matter

Republican candidates for Congress generally outperformed their polls, they had a good election season. WHAT THAT MEANS… is Republicans showed up to vote, their votes were counted, … and enough of them chose not to vote for Trump. Also, Trump has been saying all along he wanted his supporters to show up at the polls even though his own votes are always mail in, as are the military not currently home to vote. So, naturally- the initial tallies would reflect a Trump lead. The dems have been telling their folks to get their votes in early – no surprise there are so many mail -ins….and due to COVID concerns, many people chose that option, dems and reps alike. It’s not rocket science, it’s not illegal and so far, despite even republican leaders asking the President and his campaign to show any proof at all that there is election fraud – ZERO. ZIP. CRICKETS. I’m seeing all kinds of crazy conspiracy crap and you know who’s whining the most? Those FUCK YOUR FEELINGS flag wavers. The most heartbreaking thing about this election for me is to see how nasty it has become, that neighbors and friends feel comfortable waving that particular flag on their houses, their boats, their trucks, their places of business.
Both parties have a lot of work to do. What we need is a government who can work together on the myriad of issues we have before us. What we need is for health care to be affordable, taxes to be fair and not outrageous as they are now for many, wages to be fair to the employer and the employee, equality for all in all aspects of life, we need to support our police, law and order and that does not exclude fair application of it. We need honesty and integrity from our elected officials, a rejuvenation of our infrastructure, a healthy respect for our environment and climate change, support for the business community and especially small businesses, and for all to realize that a pandemic should NEVER be a political talking point – we are all in this clusterfuck together and if we don’t start coming together no matter what they do in DC, we are all screwed. Every one of us. The Democratic and Republican parties have lost their way in some respects and we are all paying the price. Middle ground is the only way to come together and if you’re one of those chirping Civil War!… how you don’t see you will lose too is beyond the beyond.
We need a middle ground, and we need to stop attacking each other. We need a new breed of government who represents sound economic, health and environmental policy that benefits us all, not the elites who currently fund them. They aren’t in it for you, and the sooner we all figure that out, the better we will be for it. All of us, red, blue, white, black, yellow, brown, green.
I’ve had people mock me (of course behind my back but those things have a way of coming around) because I put my thoughts on the current state of things out here. I don’t see it as a waste of time…. I have always wanted what is best for this country, our people and our neighbors, the people in my life and outside of it… we all benefit from a better, kinder world. If my little space here containing my words sends out one little enlightening, encouraging ripple into a better world… it’s worth your criticism.
I pray that this election is proven to be a fair one, and if there is election fraud, let that be clear and resolved quickly, not fabricated.. and whomever wins ultimately, I pray that the first priority is to heal this divided nation – UNITY above all else. .. and that the majority of us wish for the same .
God Bless America 🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇸

Where we go from here….

What a night. While decision is not yet in, still… half of this country supported what should never be supportable.   I am so sad and embarrassed for our country at this point no matter what this particular election outcome ultimately turns out to be, that’s my simple truth. Here’s what I am taking away from it – There has always been the potential for good and evil in this world, and it all comes down to the very basic and flawed realities of the human makeup. What an absolutely beautiful world it could be for every living being on earth if not for those human flaws – ego, greed, prejudice, jealousy, cruelty, hate.
So where do we go from here? I choose not to wallow in anger, disbelief, disgust, add whatever negative you want here – Each of us continues to have the ability every day to make choices, to take steps in the decent, humane, kind, rational, truthful, intelligent direction with the general purpose of living our best lives and doing no harm to and even lifting others as we go. I’m choosing to spend this one precious life in the company of and alongside the actions of those who clearly do the same. I am so blessed grateful to know many of you – 💕👊
Onward –